Well hellur people, Chances are, you wont like me. I'm a "Heartless asshole" or at least that's what I get a lot these days. If we use to be friends, it's probably best we stay that way. I could give you the world or crush you with it. My sarcasm kills. And I'll probably laugh at my own jokes more than I'll laugh at yours. I am disgusted with the amount of hatred I have built up inside of me. I'm one of the nastiest people I know, and sometimes I truly sicken myself with the way I am. I'm not your average teenager. I've spent the past four years of my life, struggling to find myself. I'm still not content with where I'm at just yet, but I'm working on it. I've realized people tend to walk in and out of your life, no matter how hard you try to prevent it. Nobody is made of steel, and I won't pretend that I am. I am easy to get along with, don't get me wrong, but I won't call you my best friend after one conversation. I don't know where I'm going with my life. I'm stuck. I am probably one of the most complicated people you will ever meet. I'm a bitch, I'm short tempered. I have all I want, and need. Some people consider me to be conceited, vain, etc. I find that I'm just confident in myself, and my appearance. What you see is what you get when it comes to me. But if you double cross me, expect me to become your worst fucking nightmare. I'm simple, but complex. I feel too much, but I'm still numb. I've been broken down and re-built so many times I've got pieces I never knew I had missing. I've been told I'm an incredible person, and I have the potential to go somewhere in life. I've been told I'm leaps and bounds past the regular maturity level for my age. I'm a smart person, and I can admit that. I'm the kind of person, that can make you melt with a few simple, sweet, over-rated words, or I can rip you apart with mind games you've never even heard of. I'm a very lethal person when it comes to words. My pen is like my life jacket. When I'm drowning in a world where I cant be in control, my pen is always there to save me. It seems like every corner I cross I'm pulling knives from my back, I'm in the process of burning bridges, fake smiles and friendships that don't mean shit, I'm so sick of putting effort into the effortless, trust isn't that much to ask for. I'm the one who has to die, when it's time, not you, so I think I'll live my life the way that I want to, and you should too. Don't underestimate me, I don't take shit lightly at all. I'm not the type that ignores it when someone calls me something. I have responsibilities that I take care of, and I have no time for anyone's petty drama bullshit. I drink and smoke like a rockstar. I'm far from an alcoholic, but that doesn't mean I couldn't drink your ass under the table, because trust me, I could. I will destroy you. Get to know me, I walk the streets with confidence running though my body, and a song in my head. I lack patience. I desire a deep, interesting conversation; give it to me. I don't choke on my words; I'll spit anything at you that I think you should know. I am probably one of the most blunt and upfront people you will ever meet. I don't sugar coat anything or filter the things that come out of my mouth. It has it's benefits and it's drawbacks. My life's exclusive at the moment, I live it slow, so I don't miss a damn thing. Don't feed me bullshit, I'll expose it as fast as I can make your pants drop. I will always be that friend who is completely honest with you even to the point where I will make you cry because what I say is "harsh" or "mean". Also if I don't like you, trust me you will know right away and no I will not pretend I like you just to make you happy. I realized I've been looking at the world completely wrong. I am a person of many thoughts who doesn't share most of them, yet I always have something to say. I don't always know how to make things right but I always try. I'm out to save a lost cause. Which that in itself is weird because I don't believe in that whole saving thing. I'm a mystery to myself yet everyone else seems to think they have me figured out. I wouldn't call myself the nicest person in the world but you would be surprised just how much I care. I also have a certain way of contradicting myself in ways nobody can understand but myself. I'm looking for a change from my everyday routine. Something new and exciting, maybe interesting, I would even settle for horrifying. Show me the change?
You will bore me, I promise you.
I am human. I have feelings. Don't let my 'About Me' fool you. I haven't always been this way. But try your luck i could like you (:
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